Sweetheart, that is devastating. One of the first feelings loss of someone so close to you will give is a feeling of not knowing what to do when the person you've been with your entire life is gone. Just know that he is in a better place free from the pain he was going through last week, and thinking of you undoubtedly. You are a strong and brave person, your courage is enviable and I hope that you will be able to find your feet enough to keep the memories of him alive. Please make sure you don't isolate yourself in your grief, it won't help you cope at all. Speak to anyone you possibly can, be as open as you can about your grief. They're here for you and will help you cope with your loss. And I am here too, if you ever need someone to speak to or help you - I will be here to help. It's the least I can do, it's what I needed when dealing with my own loss. I hope you will feel at peace in time. I am sending you all my love and courage.

Hello - I'm terribly sad for you & can't really imagine how lost you must feel. When we lose someone so quickly it often doesn't give us time to say things we might want to. I assume you had been together a long time & he must have known how much you cared for him so do try to take some comfort from that if you can. He loved you too & would want you to take comfort from that you will keep him close in your heart & in a little while I hope that will make you feel a little less lost.

Hope this helps you even just a tiny bit. Try to take care of yourself as your husband would want.

Bless you love i had same with my partner she was 67 it just over a year for me and at times i still cant beleive the speed i bet your absolutly numbe just just take things steady do you have family your not alone are you ??  I hope not theres nothing i i can say to make you feel better if its hitting you in the middle of the night and your lonely come on here and chat to us usualy theres somone on even if you just leave a post that helps to ime so sorry for your loss .paul

Thank-you for your kind words

Thank-you Paul, I want to be alone tonight but my aunt is with me during the day, she lost my uncle 8 years ago

We would've been together for 11 years next month, i'm quite a bit younger and it was our 8th wedding anniversary in April

Ok we all deal with grief in our own way which is fine just a few suggestions is all i can offer at this time .paul

Thank-you Paul My hubbys cousin just called and said if i can't sleep i should get up and finish his jigsaw that's on the table.I hope you had many happy times with your loved one xx