Hi five hours is fine don't worry about it, you're still thinking about your father, you won't forget we never do things do get easier with time, time is a good healer, remember you won't forget it just gets less painful, try and keep yourself busy occupy your time best you can, best wishes 

Billy 

Sad, sad times for you. Feb, isn't really so very long ago & grieving takes time. You & your mum seem to be doing it in different ways but that's ok. I doubt very much she is angry with you - just angry & why not ?Cancer is cruel. Good you've come off the sleeping pills & as Billygoat says 5 hours is ok for now. In time that will get better - it really does. Sadly, there aren't any shortcuts to the grieving process if you can accept that is what you're going through it will make things a bit easier & some days will be better than others. One day, perhaps sooner than you think, 'normal' will be the order of the day.

Best wishes to you.

Hi sorry about your dad the sleep thing is the pits i have cronic insomnia and it makes grief seem twice as bad because your councious of it and its so boring to .i suppose drs give sleep hygene advice if not they have pamphlets at gp surgery . Sounds like its the mum thing her going off when you need her its probably her way of dealing with it she will not be angry at you just with everyone .might i suggest a bit of counciling local hospices do it seems like you need to talk to someone thats just there for you worth a try dont don think also bereavement groups they are ok its not very long since you lost your poor dad just give it time its will settle down and you will start to feel better the thing is time is a healer but not on its own you have to help yourself with getting out with friends and family you can get things like kalms from chemists may just be enough to help you sleep  talkings the best realy your with otheres that understand on here so keep coming on maybe a chat just before bed to settle you.paul

Hi there been a while how you doing ?