Hi crissy2 sorry about your mum.6 weeks it will be hitting you hardest now and for a while shes still here with you just diffrently . There is no way realy to take the despair away but you can get a bit of releif .see if you can arrange some counciling dont expect miracles but for an hour you can chat about anything it just seems to take the edge off for an hour or two and you can ask questions that will be going round in your head the what ifs i should have done that i should have been there all the time we all get those thoughts and they can be the most painful but you cant be there all the time or this and that .theres also bereavments groups then you can listen have a cup of tea chat with others listen to there thoughts and feeling i think sometimes just listening to otheres can level you out a bit. Ime sorry ime not giving you all the sympathy stuff which we need .its so important to us the loss we feel we need to tell the world .they say time is a great healer and it is but not on its own it gives you time to work it all out and heal you will not think this way at the moment but you know the pain does dwindle make sure you are eating and drinking healthyly that makes you feel worse so all these little things you do to feel better all together ad up to big things but theres  wino bestmagic bullet best wishs to you and your family.paul