Hi Laura...

Oh my .. so so sorry your going through this heartbraking time at the moment... loosing a mum is one of the hardest things we have to go through.... cancer sucks ...

I lost my mum suddenly from a heart attack and had no chance to even say those things like I was so proud to be her daughter... one Monday morning she called me about comming to mine tomorrow.. at 5.20 that afternoon she was gone ..

My mum was amazing too, never moaned .. loved life .. was a wonderful nanny to my boys .. I was 36 .. the thing was I was dreading her funeral .. thought I'd completely loose it ... but you know I had the feeling she was right by me saying she wasn't in the coffin, she was right by my side .. I got a strength I never dreamed of ... 

When you have an amazing mum, you never loose her .. she will live through you... you are half of her .. now I'm on my cancer journey .. and I know no mater when I go, I'll be there in my son and his little ones..  and as long as you keep her tucked up in your heart .. you'll keep her safe there ..

It hurts so much because we were blessed to have them in our lives .. yes we wanted longer .. but some get mum's that don't care ... they will never have what we had ... l try to live by the lessons mum taught me .. to be kind ... to laugh .. and to live life to the full ... that's what mum's want for their babies ...

So give your self permission to feel whatever you need to .. it's part of the grieving process ... there's no easy way round it .. just live in the day .. and imagine your mum a step behind and you know what she'd say .. bet she's really proud of her girl ...

Chrissie xx

Thank you so much for taking time to reply. Im sorry to hear about your cancer journey. Life just doesn’t seem fair.

Some days I feel like I have the strength and then some days I don’t have the motivation to do anything. She was my whole life. I would see her every single day, or txt her to tell her some news. Or if I needed advice on my son. She was literally my everything. 

People say think of the good/happy times but it hurts to think I will never have those good times again.

Its seems like it’s never going to get easier. I’m 33 and I need my mum 

So sorry to hear you lost your mum. I lost my lovely mum nearly 4 weeks ago. She was my everything too. I feel nothing but numbness at the moment but also deep sadness and I can’t get motivated to do anything either. We just have to accept that this is our life now no matter how much we hate it! We’re so lucky to have had such lovely Mum’s even if this feels so unfair.

We probably need to be kind to ourselves as it’s such early days. Mum’s funeral was as perfect as we’d hoped it would be and think we did her proud but I couldn’t believe it was her in that coffin. I didn’t know how I’d get through it but you do. I’ve never had such wobbly legs in all my life! But it is such a comfort having people there who share in your love for your mum and will support you through.

Hoping it all goes well for you x

My Mums funeral is on monday. I don’t feel ready to say goodbye. 

Life is just so hard at the moment. I really appreciate you taking the time to reply. 

I keep thinking of the good times but then it hurts to know there won’t be those good times again. 

Sorry for your loss too.