Oh darling, I'm so sorry to read this.....I lost my own beautiful mum 5 years ago, it shocks me today, I used to phone her everyday ( whether she wanted me to or not)! 

I totally understand about going through the motions, that's all you can do.....just get through the next minute, hour, day, week......

i don't think we ever really get over loosing our mothers, but mine is inside me....she's in my heart....her blood runs through my veins....I see her every time I look in the mirror (and that does comfort me) 

your mum would want you to carry on, try and think what she would say to you.....I know what my mum would say to me! 

Be kind to yourself. There is no time limit on grief......but in time it won't feel so raw....

squeezing your hand xxxx

Thanks Marlyn ️ I’m sorry about your Mum. I honestly can’t see it getting any better. I have friends and some family but no husband or kids or anyone I feel I need to stay for. It all seems pointless. 

Your life most certainly isn't pointless, again, just imagine your mum standing in front of you...listening to what your saying and thinking....

How about giving the Samaritans a call.....116 123 ....it's 24 hours 7 days a week.....please just try them....I do feel they will help you massively....you've nothing to loose and everything to gain.....

try them? And let me know how it went? Xxx

Thank you, I will. I have had some counseling but that only works temporarily. Thanks for your concern xx

I have been where you are now.....I understand.....I couldn't breath with grief!! 

Please call them Hun xxxxx

That’s how I feel. It’s like being punched in the gut. I will call xx

Hi there ...

There was one part of my life, where everything looked bleak ... I was drowning in sadness and didn't know how to stay afloat ... all I saw was a big black hole ... I just wanted to jump in and stop hurting ..

But I reached out ... like you've done on here .. and someone threw me a lifeline, and I had the choice to let go or hold on ... l held on to it with every tiny bit of strength I had ... and started with baby steps ... one day at a time ... and like the baby who learned to walk unaided ... I did .. and oh so slowly reached out and let others help ... 

You know if I'd have jumped in that hole, I would never have seen my grand kids ... or known the joy they give ... you know there's lots of charities looking for volenteers ... it's finding somewhere to give your caring and love that will make a difference to them and you .. 

I'm so so glad I held on .. like Marlyn said, ring the Samaritans... ask McMillan if there's councilng in your area ... you can make a difference in this world ... you can reach out to others who feel like you ... it won't come knocking at your door .. you need to find that life line ... and hold on tight, like I did nearly 20 odd years ago ...  and one day you may get to look back and be glad you did ... and you can then help someone who feels like giving up ... you can do this ... wer all here if you need a shoulder to lean on ... your not alone .... 

Think you need a gentle hug right now ... Chrissie

Thanks Chrissie, it’s good to know others have felt like this and come through the other side. I just don’t have a partner or kids and feel like I can’t lean on my friends all the time. Everything I did was for my Mum and that’s why I don’t see a point anymore. I will try. Xx

Just popping by Hun......remember.....take it slowly...xxxxx

Thank you, been having a very tough week :(