Hi Debra, I am so sorry that you lost your mum, there are no words at this time. I was the same when the Minister came to see us, couldn't cope with the reality of my mum's death. 

It will be so difficult for you and I can only say, as you probably are doing, keep your family close, you have to support each other, you can't do it alone.My neices did a tribute at mum's funeral service, which broke me but they were so brave, they wanted to share some of their memories of their nan. My dad wanted to show some photo's of mum's life, I only really saw the first couple before the tears came but I helped dad choose them for the service. It is hard and my heart goes out to you at this sad time.

Sounds as though you were a great comfort to your mum, I guess we can only feel the sadness we do when you love your mother that much. I know the feelings when you say you feel lost forever....my mum died in September last year and I struggle but the pain does ease and you have to go through the grieving process, we're all different and whatever you feel now and in the future will be normal.

My sincere condolences, thinking of you.