Hello Wally4ever and welcome.  It is only a very short period of time since your mum died so don't be so hard on yourself.  Your mum has loved and cherished you since the moment of your conception so of course it is horrendous when you lose her; you have never known life without your parents.  Why are  you so angry (and who with?) that you keep having a go at your partner?  I think we all have regrets when we have lost a parent - there are things we think we should have said and done.  But you know what, they loved us unconditionally.  If there are things you would like to have said then say them out loud, write them down, whatever is easiest for you. Don't bottle things up inside you.  You might like to consider bereavement counselling at some point  - Cruse Bereavement Care has a Freefone number 0808 808 1677.  I know some areas have a waiting period but it could be worth getting your name down if you want to consider this.  But do try to work things out with your partner who could be a great support if you would let her do so.  Can you not share your mourning with your dad and listen to what he is feeling; it might help if you can talk together about what you are both experiencing.   Also your girls need you and may well be worried about you.  I hope at least some of this is useful.  Best wishes.  Annie 

Hello Wally4ever and welcome.  It is only a very short period of time since your mum died so don't be so hard on yourself.  Your mum has loved and cherished you since the moment of your conception so of course it is horrendous when you lose her; you have never known life without your parents.  Why are  you so angry (and who with?) that you keep having a go at your partner?  I think we all have regrets when we have lost a parent - there are things we think we should have said and done.  But you know what, they loved us unconditionally.  If there are things you would like to have said then say them out loud, write them down, whatever is easiest for you. Don't bottle things up inside you.  You might like to consider bereavement counselling at some point  - Cruse Bereavement Care has a Freefone number 0808 808 1677.  I know some areas have a waiting period but it could be worth getting your name down if you want to consider this.  But do try to work things out with your partner who could be a great support if you would let her do so.  Can you not share your mourning with your dad and listen to what he is feeling; it might help if you can talk together about what you are both experiencing.   Also your girls need you and may well be worried about you.  I hope at least some of this is useful.  Best wishes.  Annie