I lost my wife to breast cancer

I lost my wife to breast cancer on her 44th birthday just over 3 months ago. I have 4 children who we both adored. I just can’t get over that feeling of loss and loneliness. My wife battled for 8 years having different types of chemo, radiotherapy and surgery as the cancer spread around her body and not once did she feel sorry for herself or ask why me? She lived life to the full always putting others first. The way she died was awful seeing her gasping for air and being in so much pain will never leave me. She was the bravest person I new she was my best friend and I miss her and loved her so much. Christmas has been really hard and then tonight I have just found my youngest son crying and hugging a wall that has her picture on it. I know she wouldn’t want me to be unhappy or feel sorry for myself and the kids but I do and I can’t see any future for me apart from the children as my life ended the minute hers did. I loved with everything I had and never missed an appointment or treatment we really were inseparable.

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  • I'm sorry for yours and your baby's loss and my heart breaks for you all.

    I have just lost my wife on the 27th.  To an unknown primary she had secondary cancer found in her lungs, after being in hospital for 4 weeks.

    She was told on Christmas Day by her self and then left for two days with out me by her side because of covid what she also caught in hospital. I got to hold her in my arms for just 3 hours before she passed away.

    She was my life and best and only friend as she said, like you my life has just stopped the only reason I'm still going is my son and two foster children we have.

    Yes I'm doing the day to day things to keep everything going but when I look over to where she should be laying next to me or I look up and see photos of her I just well up and start crying, the pain is just to much. 

    Looking on here, sadly shows me that I'm not the only one going through this. 

     

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  • I'm sorry for yours and your baby's loss and my heart breaks for you all.

    I have just lost my wife on the 27th.  To an unknown primary she had secondary cancer found in her lungs, after being in hospital for 4 weeks.

    She was told on Christmas Day by her self and then left for two days with out me by her side because of covid what she also caught in hospital. I got to hold her in my arms for just 3 hours before she passed away.

    She was my life and best and only friend as she said, like you my life has just stopped the only reason I'm still going is my son and two foster children we have.

    Yes I'm doing the day to day things to keep everything going but when I look over to where she should be laying next to me or I look up and see photos of her I just well up and start crying, the pain is just to much. 

    Looking on here, sadly shows me that I'm not the only one going through this. 

     

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