She was diagnosed with lung cancer in January. Three weeks ago the consultant oncologist phone to say that she should come into the hospital immediately as the latest blood test was showing dangerously low platelet count. I was able to stay with her for the last four nights. A oncologist counsellor who she had been in contact with over the last couple of months saw her for the last few days. One the last day the counsellor told me that when she spoke to my wife, my wife had told her that I was the person she was most worried about. What would happen to me after her ddeath? The counsellor told me to tell her I would be okay and that I should tell her that I would carry on. She died an hour after I told her. I just feel so guilty that I could have said something earlier to let her go.
