My dad passed away from pancreatic cancer in the early hours of Monday. He was at home and surrounded by his family but suffered terribly from terminal restleness and I can't stop thinking about it. My biggest fear is that he was in pain, both mental and physical, right before he passed. I also can't get his anguished facial expression out of my mind. I'm broken inside. At times I feel numb, then I break down. My family and I have been using gallous humour in a bid to get through this, but I don't know what else to do. I know it's normal to feel all these emotions, but I'm not quite sure how I'll be able to cope. I miss him so much it kills me. Please help. My thoughts and prayers for everyone else going through the same thing x