Can’t live without my Mum

I lost my Mum nearly 3 weeks ago and had her funeral yesterday where I brought her home to be buried with my Nan and Granddad. It’s not any easier in fact I think I’m getting worse. I feel like I have nothing to live for now. She was my best friend and I talked to her 3 times a day when I was away working and spent so much time with her when I wasn’t. I feel the same about things she will never get to enjoy anymore, I don’t want to enjoy them either. I felt mistakes were made and she could have been around longer. I don’t know if I want to carry on, I feel like there no’s point. People say but she would want you to do this and that but they have no idea of the pain I’m in. I have no partner or children just a career that I don’t care about anymore. I don’t know what to do.

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  • I lost my beautiful Mum on the 17th January. She had had cancer twice before but recovered really well, then was diagnosed with another tumour in her bowel in November, she had a stent put in her bowel on the 15th December to stop any blockage over Christmas, then middle to the end of January she was gonna have her bowel removed and a stoma fitted. On the 21st December my father called the hospital to make them aware my Mum was in pain from having the stent fitted, they prescribed morphine, this helped the pain but my Mum got sicker. 28th December mum was taken into hospital in agony. The stent had punctured her bowel and abdominal wall causing her abdomito fill with poo, they took her to theatre and proceeded with the big op, sadly she developed sepsis and passed away on the 17th January. We have an investigation going on and the have now upped it to a serious incident, I feel like my mum has been murdered and should still be with us. I am totally heartbroken and just can't move on

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  • I lost my beautiful Mum on the 17th January. She had had cancer twice before but recovered really well, then was diagnosed with another tumour in her bowel in November, she had a stent put in her bowel on the 15th December to stop any blockage over Christmas, then middle to the end of January she was gonna have her bowel removed and a stoma fitted. On the 21st December my father called the hospital to make them aware my Mum was in pain from having the stent fitted, they prescribed morphine, this helped the pain but my Mum got sicker. 28th December mum was taken into hospital in agony. The stent had punctured her bowel and abdominal wall causing her abdomito fill with poo, they took her to theatre and proceeded with the big op, sadly she developed sepsis and passed away on the 17th January. We have an investigation going on and the have now upped it to a serious incident, I feel like my mum has been murdered and should still be with us. I am totally heartbroken and just can't move on

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