Can’t live without my Mum

I lost my Mum nearly 3 weeks ago and had her funeral yesterday where I brought her home to be buried with my Nan and Granddad. It’s not any easier in fact I think I’m getting worse. I feel like I have nothing to live for now. She was my best friend and I talked to her 3 times a day when I was away working and spent so much time with her when I wasn’t. I feel the same about things she will never get to enjoy anymore, I don’t want to enjoy them either. I felt mistakes were made and she could have been around longer. I don’t know if I want to carry on, I feel like there no’s point. People say but she would want you to do this and that but they have no idea of the pain I’m in. I have no partner or children just a career that I don’t care about anymore. I don’t know what to do.

Parents
  • Hiya I completely understand where you are coming from I lost my mum suddenly in August and feel absolutely cheated! She was my best friend I was always doing stuff with her and enjoyed it! I welcomed my first born daughter in June and she was there to witness the birth everything in my life was great she helped throughout my whole pregnancy. Then suddenly about mid July she started to get a cough and became really tired we all thought it was a chest infection well come early August she was admitted to hospital and a couple of days later died. I cannot believe it or understand this awful timing she was so excited to be a first time nan and then feel god just whipped her away from us both. I have to carry on for my baby and to be fair I want to for her because she needs her mum but everyday I wake up angry at the situation I am in this was not in the plan and feel I will be gutted about it for the rest of my life I really search for answers that one day we will be able to meet again. 

  • Hi Annastasia. We do all meet again :-). When my dear husband died at the age of 31, I sat next to him for the last 11 days of his life. The day before he died I put my forehead to his and I was amazed to see what he could see. Andy was on a snowy mountain. His friends and family that had passed on before him were all standing there waiting for him. Even his pet dog :-). If you want to hear more, just say, and I will  reply to you and tell you more of the story X Best wishes Tony 

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  • Hi Annastasia. We do all meet again :-). When my dear husband died at the age of 31, I sat next to him for the last 11 days of his life. The day before he died I put my forehead to his and I was amazed to see what he could see. Andy was on a snowy mountain. His friends and family that had passed on before him were all standing there waiting for him. Even his pet dog :-). If you want to hear more, just say, and I will  reply to you and tell you more of the story X Best wishes Tony 

Children
  • Hi Tony, 

     

    Can you tell me more please about your dear husband and the snowy mountain.  My lovely mother went to Heaven last September and in a strange way she's hard to miss and I don't feel as if she's gone because we're  having so so many signs from her, it's wonderful and the only thing that consoles me. Her physical body has moved on but her Spirit has stayed with us. I know I'll meet her again because  I continue to meet her still.  The other morning I was woken up by a hand on my shoulder,  I thought it was my husband but it couldn't have been as he was fast asleep. I know I didn't dream it. This ors only one of dozens of encounters and happenings that are unique to her. 

    Chat soon

    Denise

  • Hi Denise. My name is Tina by the way. The phone decided that I was trying to spell Tony LOL. When my husband was alive and well we had a very close bond. We meet on the train when we were 16-17, but both had boy or girl friend, so nothing happened. Just hi and bye. About a year later we bumped into each other again, and this time we were both single. We just bonded immediately :-). We were together for 13 years. I would ask Andy to pop to the shop, and forget to ask for a certain item. That's okay I thought, I will send a message in my head. ( This was before mobiles). He would always come back with the extra item and a puzzled look on his face. You can probably see were this is going...... The day before Andy died I put my forehead onto his, and he was talking to me, but not out loud, he was deeply unconscious. I was having a two way conversation with him, but my in-laws could only hear me talking. How I know that what I saw was really true...... Andy's pet dog was there on the snowy mountain. I always believed that the dog was put down with only 3 legs ( he had cancer in one of them), but on the mountain he had all 4 legs. In my 2 way conversation with Andy, I said, that can't be your dog, it has 4 legs. Yes it is he replied. He got put down with all 4 legs. His family didn't think it was fair to amputate, so had him put down with all his legs. I honestly never knew this information before that day. Andy's family (Nans and grandads) were there waiting for him. Knowing that he was on his way. They built him a log cabin beside a beautiful lake. It was truly amazing.