Dear Emma,  losing your Mum is tough, no matter how old you are you feel bereft.  Why don't you put some nice photos of your Mum in frames and position them in places like your front room, or on your dressing table, then talk to her.  I did this and I say things like,  hello Mum, I miss you, or I'm having a bad day and need to talk to you.  I say good morning to her and kiss her photo with my finger tip.  Apologise to the children and tell them why you shouted,  children are very forgiving and understand more than we give them credit for.  Think about happy times with Mum and share those memories with your husband .  Whenever we took Mum out if the weather was bad she would say, the sun's shining over there even though it was probably miles away!  So we say that now when we go out and laugh about it.  Let it all out on here Emma,  it's better out of your head and posting helps.  Love Carol 

Hi Emma, I could have written the same words, my mum passed away on 26 September and today I haven't cried but the sadness is overwhelming. I actually said to my husband earlier that I won't mention mum to him again as he seem's tired of me talking about her, He says that I am torturing myself but I want to talk about mum. 

Although Myleofibrosis took my mum, she also had Alzheimers and she was very quiet, so my dad is used to a 'quiet' house but I know what you mean, it is different and seeing her dressing table with her face-creams and bits and bobs breaks me. I dont know what elseto say, its just awful feelings but others say it does get easier in time?

I hope you have some better days moving forward.

Take care,

x

I am so sorry for your loss. I still have my mum but I know it's bleak. I will miss her and we are so close. It's not fair any of this. Xx

Thank starcatone, it does make me feel better that in not going crazy. Even though my husband says it's ok and I'm allowed to get angry it seems wrong. Mum did die so quickly after diagnosis and I miss her. Her funeral is going to be hard as my mum  help so many people we are expecting lots of people to her celebration, she always hated the word funeral.

Thank you for your words

Emx

Hi Em,

I'm 4 years on from losing my amazing Mum after a very long and painful battle where I was the strong one and supported everyone. I was angry, devastated and found it almost impossible to smile again. It does get easier  but you need to cry and talk as much as you want without any feeling of guilt. I still cry now as I still and always will miss my Mum but I can control my grief better. You must give yourself time. The anger will reduce and the emptiness will diminish. Keep talking and know that there are many people out there that understand and will listen. Sending you love and strength. Xx