Hello all. I am 20 years old and my mum would now be 55. I lost her on January 7th this year, 2018. She had ovarian cancer for 3 years. There was absolutely no route for her to die. Although I thought of it a lot, she would not allow it to happen. After numerous pristine scans and blood results. It was not the route she’d take lightly. She always reacted well to Chemo and battled beautifully. It has been 8 months now. I couldn’t go back to uni, so I’m back to living with my dad. I For my whole life I’ve never got on with him, I am doing well to tolerate him even though I don’t have a choice. I think he is struggling to be a parent to me because mum was all I have ever needed. So he’s not had to. I am really struggling. I’m seeing a counsellor lady who helped mum too and knows me very well. I have a job I love. So I’m keeping busy. We did everything together and I did everything I could to help her. She was the best parent. I have always been reserved and never really talk about my life so my situation now makes it even harder. Talking doesn’t really help me. I am finding life really hard. Because I’m so young. I haven’t been able to do what everyone gets to do with their mums later on in life. I was wondering if anyone has gone through similar to me so I could maybe feel assured I’m not alone. Please can anyone give me some words of encouragement. Thankyou X