It's almost 4 months since my love left this life and the pain of missing him is still sharp and fresh. On May 3 he succumbed to colon cancer after a two and a half year fight to the very end. He was a beautiful man who loved me from the beginning to the end of his days. I miss his poetic texts and spontaneous affection. He had a great sense of humor but was serious about the value of life. His last three months were filled with pain so I'm relieved that he's free from that, I just miss him so much especially at night and weekends. I do have lots of family and friends who've been quite supportive but none of them know what it feels like that's why reading posts in this forum have been really therapeutic for me, thanks everyone.