Hi there.  My mam died in 1984; there is always a residual sadness and I still occasionally "talk" to her.  Obviously she doesn't talk back although I can still sometimes hear her voice in my head when I think of her.  No problem.  It is the same with my dad who died some years after my mam.  They were an important part of my life.  It is difficult to know what to say to you without knowing a bit more about you.  Are you happy with other parts of your life - forgive me for being so personal - but could you be having any hassles or unhappiness in your personal life which makes you yearn for your mum's unconditional love and support.  In one sense of course she is still with you - in your heart and in your mind and there is no reason why you should ever lose this.    It seems such an easy get-out for me to say you might like to try further counselling but without knowing anything at all about you (other than what you have told us) I don't really know what to advise.  In effect you are "getting by" without your mum because of course she is not physically with you.  But you obviously are not happy.  I am hoping somebody else here may have some advice and hope you will continue to tell us a bit more about yourself.  Annie