I lost my Mum to lung cancer about nine years ago now. I miss not being able to talk to her about my day, have a general moan when things get on top of me or sharing good news. The thing is though I don’t feel I grieved properly at the time of her passing. At the time I didn’t have a support network, Inwas being made redundant from my job, I’d just broken up with my girlfriend. My sister and I weren’t very close, my Dad lived abroad and didn’t come back to the UK to be there for either my sister or myself, and I suppose my so called friends didn’t know how to handle the situation so their support was limited to sympathetic texts. I suppose I felt that I had to be strong for myself and if I gave in to my grief I wouldn’t have been able to pull out of it. So I just ploughed on and coped as best I could. 

Surely not having experienced the utter gut wrenching soul destroying grief of losing someone I loved dearly can’t be normal. I’m concerned that it’s affected me. Maybe this is the wrong place to be sharing this?