Well its just over a month since i lost my liz the pains getting worse been put on tamazapam its helping a bit but ime in depair guess ime ime just exhausted and warn out have had lots of intrusive thoughts about escape dont think i can go on much longer. To me its its like loosing ten people my love my friend my confidonte my carer had a bike accident last friday lorry engine blou up sprayed oil on road and bike sliped out from under me ended up in a/e for eight hours they found i had some pancreas calsificatcal and amm bruised lorry company admitted liability .but all that to sort my deseased wifes cars still at the back of house our caravan has to be sold as cant bare to use it is ime having grief counceling .has anyone had grup therapy is it helpful?? To me the accident was as if my liz had caused this so they could find the problem with pancreas otherwise how would have been found i could have gone on till it got bad think they call it synergie other than bruising i wasnt damage ime hoping this is the case as it gives me confort for a while other things unexplainable things have happend to ive gone to bed because being awake is to painful