Soon it will be a year since my mum passed away. Every month I tell myself that next month I will be happier but that time never comes. I just feel so miserable. I can’t understand why my favorite person in the world has been taken. I’m really struggling to be ok and see happiness. I love my other half to pieces and every moment I spend with him but when I am on my own (he has to work away) I just feel so lost. I use to run everything past my mum, she was my rock and my best friend, and now I feel pushed into adulthood and trying to be independent but I just feel so anxious and can’t believe I have lost her. I feel like I woke up one day and she was just gone, even tho her battle was 10 months. I don’t want to tell anyone that I’m not ok as I don’t want to be a burden. Open to any advice thank you for stopping by, I guess I am desperate to be ok again, life just isn’t the same anymore and never really will be xxx