Hi there ... So sorry you lost your mum to this cancer that has no compassion , no empathy ... 

But please go easy on yourself as your in those first raw months ...  Missing someone that much, just shows how blessed you were to have such a wonderful mum in your life ....  So many will never know that love ... My mum was my best friend too ... And an amazing nanny to all her grandkids ...

There is no easy way through ... It's all part of the grieving process ... I'm 29 years after mum mum left , and although you do get used to them not being around, you never stop missing them ... I love an old buddists saying ... Don't cry because you lost someone .... Smile because you were blessed to have had them in your life ...

I know if my mum looked down to see me crying, she would be broken hearted ... So I live my life in the way she'd have wanted ... I don't think any mum would want to see their baby hurting so very much ...

She hasn't left you, she's right there in your heart ...  Chrissie xx

Your message was so lovely. But I just couldn' bring myself to reply as each time I would cry.

I' still finding it very hard to carry on with my life.

At the moment I don' seem to want to be around people.

I stay in my house or garden with my dogs x

Your message was so lovely. But I just couldn' bring myself to reply as each time I would cry.

I' still finding it very hard to carry on with my life.

At the moment I don' seem to want to be around people.

I stay in my house or garden with my dogs x