I lost my partner in March 17 to cancer. Sometimes I feel am coping then all of a sudden it hits me and I can't stop crying, he died in my arms. He wasn't just my partner he was my best friend. He fought like a lion for me. I've lost a lot of family in the last few years so I've had my fair share of grief but this pain of my soulmate is unbearable. When will I stop feeling this raw pain