Hi lisa ... i still miss my mum 28 years down the line ... you do learn to live with it, but just slowly, i remember thinking in my head that ill see her tomorrow, i did that every day till that raw pain eased... but still miss her every day ... my son's miss her too, and they still talk about their nanny and how wonderful she was .... 

Now I'm on my breast cancer journey, as I'm the nan, with my beautiful granddaughter who's my world and just turned 6 .... she's here laying beside me, sleeping ... since she's been 18 months I've been doing a memory book, telling her all the funny times we've had, and pictures of our adventures along the way, as I'm so scared she may forget these memories ... maybe you could do your son a little memories book of your mum and tell him all about her, as you've more then likely got photos of them together, and tell him how much she loved him ... it has really helped me ... with a little bit of her story of her life too ..

I know I'd be so sad if I looked down after I go, and see my son's so sad ... I love it when they laugh over silly things, and to remember the good times ... like I tried to do for my mum and dad ... I've included photos of them and my grandparents story in her book too ..

You need to go through this sad time as it is part of the process of losing them , so be kind to your heart while it's happening .. I used to think of a couple of funny memories I had and when I feel sad, i relive the happy ones till they push the sad ones aside, and I smile again ...

Sending you a big hug ... Chrissie xx

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Hi Chrissie,

thank you so much for you reply with your really kind and encouraging words!

Your granddaughter is very beautiful ,I'm so sorry to hear that your also having to go through this awful journey  with breast cancer too, you seem very strong and brave for your children and grandaighter I'm sure they are very proud of you.

The book sounds such a wonderful idea to do for my son, I haven't got many photos when she was well I have some of her while she was poorly, I suppose I could use them as he will understand her journey a little bit more when he is old enough to understand.

i still think that everyday I wake up I wish I could just ring her to tell her about my day and all about what my little boy is up to, it still doesn't seem real. Almost feel like my life just feels over at the minute. I have to try be strong for my baby boy but my heart is breaking inside. 

i really hope you will get better  stay strong for your gorgeous little grandaughter.

Sending you a big hug back! 

lisa x

Hi Lisa,

Sorry to read/hear your news,

I lost my beautiful mum to MBC in Feb only 3 weeks after diagnosis, she was the most important person in the world to me and vice versa, true best friends.

Even though some time has passed since Feb, in many ways it is still very raw, I don’t spend every second of everyday crying now like the first couple of months but continually have a lump in the back of my throat and that sinking feeling.

I just turned 27 in November and my mum was 56, similar age to your mum and way too young to be taken away.

Please just know you are not alone and unfortunately there are a lot of us here in the same boat I don’t have kids yet but when I do I pray my mum can see them from where she is.

Feel free to message me on here if you ever want to chat xx