Hello, I can so relate to how your feeling. My " soulmate" passed away in June, we had been together for 38 years and my lovely Malcolm was only 61. I get so scared at times if I stop and think of life without him. I really try and busy myself each day and maybe try and " box things off" to stop me dwelling too much on things. Today as I was driving,  a favourite song came on the radio that was special to us, that set me off crying and I pulled into a lay-by and bawled my eyes out. I felt better afterwards so tears do help cope for sure.  We had so much planned together and I really find it hard to cope with the fact we won't be together to do it. Please message me if you want to or just chat on here. It does help knowing your not on your own. my very best wishes to you. Rose 

Just wanted to say ... I'm so so sorry for your loss ... life is so cruel ... and there's no easy way through grieving ... all the emotions you can imagine all seem to overwhelm us at times like this ... so glad you got message from someone else here too going through the same ... so hopefully you will be able to hold each other's hand for a while ... 

hold on to the good memories and they will help you too ... I'm sure they don't leave, they just watch us from abouve .... and we carry them in our hearts wherever we go ...hope you both have loving families too to give you a hug now and then. ....

thinking of you both ... Chrisie xx

I am so sorry. l have no idea what l would do without my husband. I have been married 20 years and we have been together since he was 16 and l was 17. He is my soul mate and l don't think l could cope. We are always together and have no place l would rather be than with him and my family. No kids of my own so its just me and him. Word cannot help in this sitution. Apart from l am so sorry

L

Hi, Today I'm really struggling. Just going to take myself off for a walk which helps me clear my head but this awful loneliness and pain is so tough. Hugs to you all. 

Hi Malro

Yes my dad has been doing a lot of walking as he said it clears his head and passes time.

I cannot begin to understand how bad you must be feeling as it's your life partner, ?

like my mum was to my dad.

I know l have woke this morning and she is in my mind. God how l miss her l still don't want to accept she is gone. My mum.....my best friend.....the one that helped me when l was ill or upset or had a problem that was bothering me. She was always there now l have nobody. My dad is amazing and l love him so much but like now he is suffering and lost. He càn't think of a future without mum and l sit and try help him and say you have a future and he has us (his family) and we need him. But who has he really got when we all go home. l know if it was me l would give up. I feel like that just now and its my mum but l also have my own illness to put up with and it gets me down and l think to myself my partner would be better without me he still has a chance at a normal life with someone that can hardly walk and might get wors

But that's not my advice to you. You have to find that inner strenth to go on as would he want you to give up? I am sure it would be no so you go your walks do anything that makes you feel that small bit better. Be as strong as you can. Its going to be so hard but you will do it. 

I am weak today l just want to see her as everything is going wrong. I am scared about getting knee surgery, l think l am gonna lose my job the full.2 days l was going to work when l went back after recovering from this op which will be months. I am getting no pay anyway am even losing my ssp so they sent me a form on getting ESA whatever that is. And l don't care as l just want my mum.

Hugs

L xxxx