Hi Skyrock

My mum to died of lung cancer which was diagnosed at the begining of the year but we were assured after 4 weeks treatment they could cure her. 

She was terrified such a brave lady who was always there if any of us were ill was so scared but we kept reasuring her. She done her 4 weeks treatment then had 1 ct scan and they said you are fine go home and enjoy your summer. From that minute on my mum was convinced she still had it. She was very weak but we put that down to her treatment but it never seemed to get better. She went for a 6 week check up where again they told her she was fine. She was not convinced and started suffering bad anxiety and depression..she cried everyday and kept saying there were lumps in her shoulder. My dad was doing everything for her which was so unlike her and she would not leave the house. One day me and my husband decided to take her to doctors as she was so anxious and they took blood and looked at her shoulder and there was lumps there. The next day the phone rings and its the doctors to say her cacium was up could she het to a hospital asap. 

She never came  home after that. By the end of the week l demanded a meeting with her doctor and me my husband and sister went in. What he said to us l just could not take in. He said she has a few weeks at the most. I thought what do you mean she was ok we were told. No l  afraid her cancer has spread into her lymth nodes and across her chest and up her arm and kneck. 

I spent that day and the next getting her into a pallative care hospice as the treatment she was getting in the hospotal was awful. Disgusting to say the least and the attitude from some of the nurses were the worst l have seen. I got her moved to a hospice and the diffrence was night and day. 

But she died on 10th aug 17 and its such a huge thing l can't take it in. I loved her so much and l could not have asked for better parents. Now l see my dad lost....lonely and breaking his heart without her and l am no help as l find it hard going to the house as l just expect her to be there on the couch. I can still smell her. I am trying but l am fighting a battle in my head trying to accept she is gone. Nothing can prepare you. So l am with you like a lot of people here. But l have lost faith in what doctors tell you or don't tell you. As l look back just over a year and you had the healthiest woman ever. She never smoked or hardly drank and ate eveything that was good for you. She was a good person and did not deserve it. I am angry that she has been taken. I miss my mum more than you will ever know. Right now everything in my life has no meaning. How will l go on without her. Over a month has passed and it still feels like yesterday. 

Xx