Hi Skyrock

I am so sorry for your loss.

I really haven't any advice but just wanted to offer my support. I am in the exact same boat as you.

My mum passed away on the 4th Sept, 17 days after diagnosis. I came here to vent my grief as I don't want to burden my family with it. 

I am due back at work on Monday but really don't know if I am ready. I know I need to get on with life but its so hard right now. 

It doesn't feel real most of the time. Then reality hits home and I am just heartbroken. Like you, the fact that I won't speak to, hear, feel my mum again is just unbearable. 

Wishing you and your family all the best at this time.

Lou x

Hi Skyrock

I am sorry for your loss. Your post resonated with me and I just wanted to reach out.  My mum passed away in January after a 5 year battle with blood cancer.  Her treatment came to an end last October so we both knew we were on a countdown. Having some time to get things sorted and be at her side in her final weeks brings me a great sense of comfort. It doesn't however make the pain any less. What I have found is that the world keeps turning even when I don't want to jump on for the ride. There will be random moments when something will just grab me and pull me off balance and I'll have a wobble.  Because some time has passed, others have moved on with their lives, which is fair enough. This can however make it harder to reach out and show or say I am having a moment and can be particularly difficult if I'm in the supermarket or on the bus. The only advice I can give is weep when you need to, scream when you want to and talk to friends/family or even people on this site who will understand.  I have found the poem 'She Is Gone' really soothing when I am having a bad day and as a mother myself, I know that I'd want my kids to remember me with smiles rather than tears. I wish you strength on your journey. x

Hi Skyrock

I to lost my mum to lung cancer just over a month ago. Its driving me mad. I am just looking for someone to take the pain away. I never thought l would feel so lost and hurt and out of control. I don't know if l can live without my mum but know thats grief talking. I have my dad who is suffering more than me and my sister who feels the same as me. And my husband is supportive but its not helping my head process the huge loss going on inside me and l would do anything to talk to her again. I keep looking at her texts. I don't know what the answer is but l.am here going through the same. I am so sorry its so hard. 

I hate cancer and l hate the doctors as l blame them to. Maybe thats just grief. But l know how you feel if you want to talk 

L