Hiya. I feel exactly the same my dad passed away on Tuesday. I cared for him every day and I know my dad so hated being so dependent I would give anything to carry on with our little routine. I know he's in a better place and free from all the suffering but I miss him so much and want him back so bad. I hurt so bad and just want this feeling to go. It helps to know my feelings are normal

mary 

Thanks BethR1. Yours too!! 

Mary, I am so sorry for your loss, nothing can ever prepare you for what we are going through right now.  I would give anything to have my dad back, free of his pain and suffering.

I am always here if you want to talk xx

We had dads funeral yesterday and it was a beautiful service.  I just didn't feel ready to say goodbye, I felt like it was someone else's funeral.  I have woken up today and I just feel nothing, I don't feel sad, I don't feel happy, just numb I suppose.

I still can't get my head around the fact he is gone xxx

Hi beth

its just to sad I'm dreading my dads funeral on the 14th July just want it over with. I feel the same I cant believe my big strong dad isn't here. I know he's in a better place but I just want him back. Nothing prepares us for this even when you know it's going to happen it still is the most hardest thing ever. It truly helps being able to talk to someone else going through the same as you know it's normal to feel the way we do

god bless

mary x

Well, when something this big happens to us, we feel numb for a period of time. The funeral is the moment when we seem to be half way to nowhere. The fact is so recent we still don't really understand what's is going on. It is something like we're dreaming. This is normal. For me the six first months were the terrible ones. Then day to day life will get more room in your thoughts but I can assure that you will think of him every single day. I still do. I am here BethR1 whenever you feel the need to talk. xx

I know it doesn't feel like it now but I sincerely promise you that your pain/numbness will go away eventually. And these feelings that you have are completely normal. It really helps to talk to someone if you are ready (a friend/ counsellor.) Also what you said about your Mum. Do you still feel the same? Don't think that you're selfish if you need some time to yourself. I'm always here if you want to talk to someone you don't know (I found that it could be hard talking with people I knew sometimes.)

Lots of love xx 

Hi all

Hope you're all well?

Thank you all for your messages, it really does mean so much!

It is 2 weeks today since dad left us and I am still waiting for it to sink in, everything just feels like it has happened too quick.  The funeral passed in a blur and I don't feel I have said goodbye properly.  Life is just carrying on and I don't feel ready to move on just yet, I just need to know this is normal for me to feel this way?

Emma, I waiting to hear from a counsellor, the hospice kindly put the wheels in motion for me before dad passed as I was worried for my son ( grandad was his best mate).  I feel like I really need that opportunity to talk everything through with someone, as you say, someone I don't know and I know won't judge me for thinking of myself.

Thank you all again, it is nice to know you are all here.

And Mary I hope you are doing ok 

Much love to all xxx

Hi BethR1. Good to know you're going to have a counsellor. She(He) will help you a lot. As you've said, we are here; come whenever you need.xx

Hi Beth,

I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. I lost my dad 5 years ago this year and it still feels like yesterday. I don't know where the time has gone. It gets easier and now I remember him so fondly. I miss him every day and still get upset but that expected. Allow yourself time to grieve and show your emotions. Use all your support networks. Big hugs. xx