I lost my beautiful mum last may, she had fought cancer for just over 4 years and it came as such a shock when she died. Just writing this makes me want to break down and scream. i'm still very angry and obviously heartbroken and i just cant move on with my life. Even though a part of me doesn't want to move on! I feel guilty when i laugh and have fun which is ridiculous because i know my mum would be going mad at me for being like that. We had such a strong and wonderful bond and we were eachothers favourite people. I'm truely broken and devastated and dont see me ever coming to terms with the loss of my mum. I just dont know how people do it!!
