Hi Hannah

I'm so sorry about your mum. It is important not to be too hard on yourself and remember that everyone is different, will cope in their own way and grief takes as long as it takes. It does sound to me though like you could use some support, or maybe some grief counselling to help you process what you have been through. Have you thought about speaking to your GP?

The loss you have experienced is huge - i cant imagine loosing my favourite person - so i am not surprised you feel the way you do. I'm glad that you are talking about it and your feelings though, as that can only bring positive things. My thoughts are with you and i sincerely hope that you are able to mend your broken heart and live the life your mum would want you to, she would want you to experience joy and happiness.

Take care x

Thank you so much for the reply, it means a lot I have been to the GP I'm actually on anti depressants as it had gotten really bad before Christmas. I couldnt even bring myself to get out of bed or do anything. And I still have days like that now, I'm supposed to be seeing a counsellor soon to but when you ask for one at the doctors it can take months to be seen I've been waiting 8 weeks..and after your first appointment they don't guarantee a second one not long after so it could again be weeks till im seen again. So it's pretty useless, I'm trying to push myself forward and focus on new things to keep me going. XXXX

Reading your post was like reading my mind, I'm 26 and lost my mum in Feb she was my best friend, biggest fan, favourite person and I can't function without her it's horrible. I'm on Anti Depressants too which seem to have helped in just giving me the energy to actually get out of bed but they are far from happy pills like everyone says. Just wanted to let you know your not alone xx