My mum died after such a short illness,her first symptom of cancer was pain in her groin area and within a week she couldn't walk. This happened on 1st December 2016 and she died in a hospice in Costa del Sol on February 18th 2017. It turns out she had stage 4 kidney cancer that had spread to her bones, fracturing her leg and pelvis. Hard to believe that in November she had no knowledge of her illness or symptoms. She was an active 72 year old who looked younger. She had nails and eyebrows done regularly, hair highlighted and was full of energy.She didn't lose weight, lose her appetite or seem tired. No clues to her illness. Then suddenly 1st December her bones suddenly became increasingly painful and,by 12th Dec she couldn't sit up and was admitted to hospital in horrendous pain. We were given false hope that she could live few years with cancer although I doubt her fractures caused by tumours could heal and her qualify of life would be poor. As,my parents live near Malaga I flew over and back several times ove past 10 weeks. Sadly she deteriorated rapidly and died peacefully on Feb 18 2017. Now I'm home though looking back it all happened so quickly that I keep thinking it hasn't happened and my mum is still alive in Spain. I think with her living away it's easy to forget...then I suddenly remember and get upset. Half the family, my dad, brother, sister in law and,2 nieces live in Spain and when I'm there I'm devastated. But at home i feel guilty for forgetting its happening and that my mum has died.,doesn't feel real. Why??