Do you have somebody you can talk too? somebody who you can really tell everything with out them passing too much comments or judgemnt?

I think talking about things is good, and after a while just purley thinking about the positives. The truth is it wont get better because you will never be able to get what you want in getting the person you miss back BUT you can talk about them all the time and keep them in your thoughts and even if it makes you upset you will be smiling too.

I also write when laying flowers, just a letter with a full update of whats going on in the world and in my family especially.

Heres a poem i keep on my phone and in my house and look at it when im feeling sad, its so true that the people you love that have passed will want you to live the life they didnt get to have - do things yo know they wanted to do and look up to the sky and tell them.

as i sit in heaven and watch you every day

i try to let you know with signs that i never went away

i hear you when your laughing and watch you while you sleep

i place my arms around you to comfort you when you weep

i see you wish the day away wishing for me to come home

thats when i send you signs so you know youll never be alone

dont feel guilty that your living a life that was denied to me

heaven is truly beautiful just you wait and see

so live your life, laugh again, enjoy yourself be free

then i know that with every breath you take youll be taking one for me

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