Hi my dad passed away 3 weeks ago (17th January) at 545am in hospital - his wish was to go home but they couldn't allow him to as he kept getting infections. The funeral was a week ago. I'm returning to work tomorrow after 7 weeks of being off (mix of leave and sick). He had prostate cancer and he lasted just under 12 months after diagnosis. 3 weeks before he died, we took him to hospital as he was deteriorating and we were then told it had spread to his spine, lungs, liver and bowels, and that he had 6 weeks left to live, but he only lasted another 3 weeks. I still feel in shock and my barriers are up, but I know it will properly hit me at some point...........I feel your pain and frustrations. I thought the funeral would've provided me with closure, but in a lot of ways it hasn't. Part of me still feels like it's dream. Maybe returning to work, the routine, the normality may make me realise....who knows. But I know my strong barriers are up and I'm scared of people knocking them down I guess. 

Hi my dad passed away 3 weeks ago (17th January) at 545am in hospital - his wish was to go home but they couldn't allow him to as he kept getting infections. The funeral was a week ago. I'm returning to work tomorrow after 7 weeks of being off (mix of leave and sick). He had prostate cancer and he lasted just under 12 months after diagnosis. 3 weeks before he died, we took him to hospital as he was deteriorating and we were then told it had spread to his spine, lungs, liver and bowels, and that he had 6 weeks left to live, but he only lasted another 3 weeks. I still feel in shock and my barriers are up, but I know it will properly hit me at some point...........I feel your pain and frustrations. I thought the funeral would've provided me with closure, but in a lot of ways it hasn't. Part of me still feels like it's dream. Maybe returning to work, the routine, the normality may make me realise....who knows. But I know my strong barriers are up and I'm scared of people knocking them down I guess.