I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my dad in November and also had that twin feeling of being so sad but also relieved that he wasn't suffering any more. I don't believe in an afterlife, but that's actually reassuring as it means I know he is at peace because he isn't there anymore. All the energy that was him has gone into everything else, so he's just part of the universe now. I find that quite peaceful, maybe a bit weirdly?

I'm wishing you lots of strength to get through this. You will have good days and bad days I am sure. It really hit me about a month after my dad's death when something on tv sparked me off. So don't be surprised if your grief comes in waves rather than just in one big lump.

Take care of yourself. xx

Thank you for your responce Amy. I am the same of you and don't believe in an afterlife per say, although I do believe some things are unexplained and interesting surrounding death ect.

Today has been different from yesterday so already I can sense each day will be different. Right now it seems to be good and bad hours in a day, one things for sure I can't take my mind of him. 

Thank you so much for your advice, I really appreciate it :) 

So sorry for your loss.    I lost my dad four months ago and it's been hard.     I was same though relieved he was no longer suffering and just slipped away with all his family by his side.        I am still doing a day at a time as is my mum and sister.      I think it's the only way to do it.       I do still believe is he all around me and watching over me and it comforts me to believe that.      Both myself and dad attended the spiritualist church and truly believe in life after death and it does comfort me.         Everyone is different and at this time you will be sad, numb, relieved and a whole load of other emotions, my best advice is take each day as it comes and remember we are all here for you and know exactly how you feel x