Hi Lucy. I lost my mum in 2010 and was ‘in limbo’ for 3 years. I barely coped with work and had no interest in anything I was so consumed by my loss, it was unbearable.  Over time it gradually ‘got better’ and 10 years later I am ok most of the time - you learn to cope and basically shut it out. Today I am clearing out the loft as we are moving house and am in floods of tears over old photos - bang it came right back in full force. I just googled ‘miss my mom so much - passed away’ (god knows why... I certainly don’t expect to find any solace online) and you post cropped up. So I just wanted to say to you I am so sorry for your loss and whilst you will get stronger over time, in my experience the loss will recede to the background but not leave you. Personally, there will always be a huge hole in my heart. I now have a grandchild for which I am blessed and thankful. But the bonds between a mother and child run deep and so, to me, as an only child I have accepted it will never leave me this loss. I sincerely hope you find peace in time (and Christmas is a time it affects me still). Sending you a big hug.  X

What ever way you lose your mum its always unimaginable and unbearable and in mine and my brothers case we'd have took her place but she would not of had us and she'd not want any of us stopping our lives for her cause she gave her's for us I'm not telling anyone how to grieve we all have our own way but remember what they would of wanted is for you to be happy because that's what mothers do 

What ever way you lose your mum its always unimaginable and unbearable and in mine and my brothers case we'd have took her place but she would not of had us and she'd not want any of us stopping our lives for her cause she gave her's for us I'm not telling anyone how to grieve we all have our own way but remember what they would of wanted is for you to be happy because that's what mothers do