Hi Helen, I'm doing ok thank you, I hope doing you're well!! Your Christmas sounds like it was lovely and you managed to enjoy it as much as you possibly could! :) That made me smile to hear that your Mum played a trick with the TV, it sounds like she was letting you know she was there with you at Christmas! 

My Christmas didn't really feel like Christmas without my Mum, as it was her favourite time of year, but I tried to be as happy as I could for her and just remember happier Christmas's :( Xx

Hi Lucy. I lost my mum in 2010 and was ‘in limbo’ for 3 years. I barely coped with work and had no interest in anything I was so consumed by my loss, it was unbearable.  Over time it gradually ‘got better’ and 10 years later I am ok most of the time - you learn to cope and basically shut it out. Today I am clearing out the loft as we are moving house and am in floods of tears over old photos - bang it came right back in full force. I just googled ‘miss my mom so much - passed away’ (god knows why... I certainly don’t expect to find any solace online) and you post cropped up. So I just wanted to say to you I am so sorry for your loss and whilst you will get stronger over time, in my experience the loss will recede to the background but not leave you. Personally, there will always be a huge hole in my heart. I now have a grandchild for which I am blessed and thankful. But the bonds between a mother and child run deep and so, to me, as an only child I have accepted it will never leave me this loss. I sincerely hope you find peace in time (and Christmas is a time it affects me still). Sending you a big hug.  X

What ever way you lose your mum its always unimaginable and unbearable and in mine and my brothers case we'd have took her place but she would not of had us and she'd not want any of us stopping our lives for her cause she gave her's for us I'm not telling anyone how to grieve we all have our own way but remember what they would of wanted is for you to be happy because that's what mothers do 

I lost mum 12 years ago on news years day 1am. She put up with cancer for six years before it took her away. She was the most beautiful mum and I still talk to her now especially when I'm cooking. Sounds silly but I do. Mums never leave you in my experience. Good luck to everyone who lost a mum xxc