My mum died and I can't cope with the loss

My mum died of liver cancer 9 months ago. I find each day unbearable and find it harder and harder. I can't sleep at night and break down all the time. I miss her so much and my life feels so empty without her. I have two children and I continue for their sake otherwise I wouldn't have the will to get out of bed each day as I feel so down. 

Does it get easier? because right now, it feels awful.

I keep thinking I need to tell mum this and remember she's gone and breakdown. I see people with their mothers and I envy them.

I feel so alone and helpless. Feel like part of me has died too and I struggle to get back up again.

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  • I've lost my mother to liver cancer too June 2017 it helps to know I'm not the only person in the world (that is how Ive been feeling) to have these unbearable feelings.

     

  • Hello, only just seen thise site. I also lost my mum to liver cancer in Feb 17 and I understand how you feel, it's do heart breaking isn't it I cry so much. My mum had been ill after Xmas doctor said was a virus but she got worse only when her ckkng turned yellow doctor called ambulance and scan was done snd on the Tuesday found out she liver cancer and she died on the Thursday it was spread too far, I live in different country so by the time I got over there it was too late never got to say goodbye, also I felt pushed out family at funeral wasn't at front row st church, wanted to see my chapel if rest made appointment ghen hold coffin lid put on do another chance to say goodbye taken away then wanted to put card in coffin my sister told me couldn't do that wasn't allowed then week later heard my neice asking my sister if she put their cards in coffin and dhe ssid yes, apart from greiving I feel so lonely as well and pushed out.
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  • Hello, only just seen thise site. I also lost my mum to liver cancer in Feb 17 and I understand how you feel, it's do heart breaking isn't it I cry so much. My mum had been ill after Xmas doctor said was a virus but she got worse only when her ckkng turned yellow doctor called ambulance and scan was done snd on the Tuesday found out she liver cancer and she died on the Thursday it was spread too far, I live in different country so by the time I got over there it was too late never got to say goodbye, also I felt pushed out family at funeral wasn't at front row st church, wanted to see my chapel if rest made appointment ghen hold coffin lid put on do another chance to say goodbye taken away then wanted to put card in coffin my sister told me couldn't do that wasn't allowed then week later heard my neice asking my sister if she put their cards in coffin and dhe ssid yes, apart from greiving I feel so lonely as well and pushed out.
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