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My mum died and I can't cope with the loss

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My mum died of liver cancer 9 months ago. I find each day unbearable and find it harder and harder. I can't sleep at night and break down all the time. I miss her so much and my life feels so empty without her. I have two children and I continue for their sake otherwise I wouldn't have the will to get out of bed each day as I feel so down. 

Does it get easier? because right now, it feels awful.

I keep thinking I need to tell mum this and remember she's gone and breakdown. I see people with their mothers and I envy them.

I feel so alone and helpless. Feel like part of me has died too and I struggle to get back up again.

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    Hi everyone, I know exactly how ye all feel. I lost my mother a month ago to ovarian cancer at the age of 55, I myself am only 28, I am devastated beyond words. I myself have two kids and I have to be strong for them, other than that I wouldn't know how to go on. Everyday I pick up my phone to ring her and tell her something and then reality hits like a tonne of bricks, yesterday my eldest boy started play school. It was a happy but very emotional day as my mam was so looking forward to seeing him. She cherished my kids. They were her world. We used to talk everyday atleast five times and now its gone to zero. I feel as though my heart is broke in two. I miss her so much. I miss seeing her everyday. I miss every little small thing she did. She was diagnosed in march and passed away in august. She was bed bound. Her life turned upside down in the blink of an eye. It killed me to see her so sick. No one should have to bury their mam in their twenties

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    I know how you feel it's been a year since my mum passed we also talked multiple times a day on the phone and from going to that to not even being able to say hello kills me I've had to remove her name from my favourites because I still go to call her she was diagnosed with can on the 22nd of June 2016 so I stopped work and started caring for her I'm the youngest of 6 and I knew this is what I had to do she came home so I started to care for her remembering all the times I had been sick as a child I wanted to return the favour not just because she was my mum but because she was struggling to do the simplest things for her self I could see how scared she was because this wasn't her first fight against cancer it was her 3rd I remember her crying in my arms sayings I don't know how everyone will cope if I die that was hard having to hold my tears back and just being there to support her but I did and reassuring her she would be ok but that wasn't the case she celebrated her 63rd birthday in hospital putting on a brave face then everything changed I took her to have a shower and the cancerous mass on her brain burst she could no longer talk she just looked at me mumbling touching her mouth so scared as she could no longer talk or move to see such a proud women brought to this broke my heart I continued to cared for her in the hospital washing her so she still had her dignity my brave mum held on for 12 days before finally giving up I'm still finding it hard when will I stop going to phone her
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    My mum died 18 days ago,age 64, and things are very raw. She was fit and well until last month and was diagnosed with cancer on the 1st September 2017 and died 9 days later on the day she was due to go on holiday. I'm not sure how I'm going to cope. Unfortunately we lost our dad eleven years ago when he was 55. I haven't got my head around the diagnosis nevermind the fact she has gone. There's so many times over the last few weeks where I have gone to call her, the latest being this morning. Life is just so unfair at times.

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    Hello. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I don’t have the word to make you feel better. I lost my mum very quickly to secondary liver cancer. She got told she would have a few weeks to a few months to live no treatment could be given too far gone. Two weeks later....She passed away & two weeks later was the funeral. It was a total shock ! How are you coping ? Do you have people to support you ?
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    Hello. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I don’t have the word to make you feel better. I lost my mum very quickly to secondary liver cancer. She got told she would have a few weeks to a few months to live no treatment could be given too far gone. Two weeks later....She passed away & two weeks later was the funeral. It was a total shock ! How are you coping ? Do you have people to support you ?
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