Hi,  good idea about the pill we would all want some of those wouldn't we? I don't cook anymore I used to love cooking for John and myself but it's not the same for one is it. I feel like I'm putting on all my friends and family at the moment , everyone wants to feed me and I'm letting them as I don't eat if I'm at home alone. I've always been a very independent sort of person so actually living on my own doesn't bother me it's their presence in the house you miss isn't it, just having someone to do things for. The number of times I have nagged John about making a mess in the kitchen , well  he could do make as much mess as he wants if I could have him back, I keep telling people to treasure what they have because you don't know what life has in store for you just around the corner .