Hello,  I lost my husband 7 weeks ago he had prostate cancer, it's so hard isn't it. I have days when I feel really strong and days like today when the tears won't stop, family are really good but it takes someone who has been through this to really understand just how it hurts. Nothing is the same life is such a struggle to get through each day. 

Hi ..i understand completely hun...its been one year almost to the day and im still crying off and on ..its just like u said....i have no motivation to do much..and dont cook anymore..i wish there was a pill u could take ..just to make u feel better...but as everyone keeps teling me its time...any time u want to chat im here for you ...jx

Hi,  good idea about the pill we would all want some of those wouldn't we? I don't cook anymore I used to love cooking for John and myself but it's not the same for one is it. I feel like I'm putting on all my friends and family at the moment , everyone wants to feed me and I'm letting them as I don't eat if I'm at home alone. I've always been a very independent sort of person so actually living on my own doesn't bother me it's their presence in the house you miss isn't it, just having someone to do things for. The number of times I have nagged John about making a mess in the kitchen , well  he could do make as much mess as he wants if I could have him back, I keep telling people to treasure what they have because you don't know what life has in store for you just around the corner .