What a moving love story Ryan3. Thanks a lot for having the courage to share it with us. I am so sorry for your loss and it must be hard for you to be reliving the past and to get those feelings of regret that you mention.

What happened to your girlfriend at such a young age is truly devastating and something that is difficult to forget. But as you say, holding on can cause more damage than letting go and I hope that with time you can gradually rebuild your own life and think about your future.

I am sure some of our members will be along shortly with some words of support and comfort drawn from their own experiences.

Best wishes,

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

Ryan 

I'm so sorry to hear this I no sometimes it harder to walk away than hold on. 

While your girlfriend was going through alot with her treatment and things you where also going through alot to and while what happened isnt fair it can't be changed. I'm a big believer in everything happens for a reason and while it may always not seem fair. 

It is difficult and hard when you watch and see people going through cancer and especially when you feel you can't cope and it is necessary to walk away but sometimes it id necessary don't regret that fact you walked away you need to remember all the good times you had with her and the strength she had and the strength you had to fall in love with her at that time in her life. 

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Hello Ryan3, sorry to hear about your story. I can understand where you come from as several years ago I separated from my husband at a time he really needed some support (his mother was ill and she later passed away while I was away), and I always felt very guity about it (I still do). We are back together and now i a trying to support him as much as I can through his illness. 

Like Sara28 said, unfortunately what was done cannot be changed. But what I would say is don't be too hard on yourself because I can't imagine that you took the decision to leave without serious thought and you wouldn't have left if you felt you really couldn't cope with the situation. You did what you did becaue at the time you felt it was the only way for you to go and at the end of day, it probably wouldn't have been easy for your girlfriend if she had to see you struggling and not being able to cope with her illness. 

I hope that in time you find some peace and remember her with a smile on your face rather than through regrets.