My lovely mommy passed away and I just can't cope with that.. She passed away on 17th of July in age (55) i'm 19 years old.. She was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer on      24th of March and had a surgery on 14 of April.. They said she has one year left.. she lived only 3 months after diagnosis.. everything happened very fast.. I am living in Northern Ireland for 3 years.. I'm from Slovakia.. I came here to study and live with my lovely sister (I love her so much) we are so close to eachother.. my mommy she was so happy that I will have better future here.. I'm studying since I came here.. we were in contact almost everyday.. I always felt bad that I left her and my daddy.. I missed her so much all the time.. they were coming here for christmas and we were very happy family.. When she called us one day that they found her a tumor on Pancreas it was a big shock and everything started.. we came to slovakia helped her with everything after surgery.. We thought she will stay here with us for a long time after we knew she's going to pass away.. we bring my mommy and daddy here to Northern Ireland my mom she used to love that place.. She passed away at home in peace and we hold her hand until her last breath.. it was very hard to see her like that.. I have so much pain in my heart and I already know it will never get better because she was the best mommy ever..I will just need to prepare that my children will grow up without their lovely grandmother.. Before when she took her last breath she was looking at me and crying.. I promised her mommy I will try to be good mother as you were..