hello I joined your group to just share my story about my mum, my angel! 

My beautiful mum was admitted to hospital on the Tuesday 31 May with water retention and because she was having stomach pain the hospital arranged for mum to have an ultrasound scan on the Friday 3 June  in the afternoon they gave us news that mum may have ovarian cancer but so they could confirm this they wanted to do a CT scan the following day on Saturday 4th June. 

The doctors were very optermistitic and this gave us hope mum went for the CT scan and we were told if anything was found we would be told asap or we will be told Monday if nothing serious, Saturday night came and went I went home and dad went to bed. At 1.30am we had a phone call from the hospital that mum was asking for dad so we both rushed up there.

We were met by two specialists who sat us down and informed us that as mum was on steriods for a different medical condition and since being admitted into hospital they had stopped all her tablets and hadnt realised they had been masking and keeping a huge amount of cancer hidden!!!

Mum had cancer in her ovaries, liver, kidneys, a large tumor in her stomach and it was also in her lungs and lymph nodes.......

Then went on to tell us the cancer was to aggressive for surgery and mum was way to poorly for any chemotherepy or radio.....

I questioned about her last scans and xrays which were 15 April and 9 May and they showed me the notes and there was nothing on them about any cancer!!!

So we were told early hours on Sunday 5 June then had to tell my brother and sister then our children...

On Wednesday 8 June mum gained her angel wings!

I will never ever forget that day I felt as if my world ended I didnt want to let her go I was so confused I still am why??? and the guilt I feel is unbearable...

At the moment Im living day to day but the only time i feel ok is when i'm sat in my mum and dads house surrounded by mums things and her chair is the only place I can sleep, I really dont feel strong enough to carry on for much longer but I know my children and my dad need me!!

any advice grately appreciated xxx