I'm sorry to hear this. Bereavement is a very sad & confusing time. It is normal to feel numb at times and you will probably feel other emotions too, sometimes all at once. There may be anger, sadness, numbness & frustration. It's okay to feel these things. If you can talk to someone like a friend or family that might help you to work through your feelings. Be kind to yourself and allow yourself time. Xx

I'm really sorry to see you've returned home to that complete shock. I think your feelings are completely normal. My mum was sure my dad was here after he had passed and who are we to judge. I did read it is quite normal to feel that after a loss. Take every minute of every day bit by bit. It's a very hard journey. Take care x