The title says it all really.
He was diagnosed/rushed into A&E on Valentines last year and a year later, eleven days before my 16th birthday he died. I am in complete shock. It only happened two months ago, so maybe thats why because I suppose its really been weeks. But I don't feel anything anymore. I don't feel happy or excited or grateful or nervous or anxious or sad. I just have this negative weight inside me. I've always been this way even when I was little, feeling like I have to fake emotions but it's got worse.
It's just my mum, sister and I left now and my mum is cracking under pressure quite a lot. My little sister is only 13 and she withdraws herself to her room constantly.
I don't know if I'm on here for help or an answer or what. But I just wish that my Dad hadn't died and that he didn't get ill. I don't know how to cope and I'm worried I'm going to do something. Thanks.
