In January my Mam was dignosed with a rare cancer, I was heartbroken to be told that we would be very lucky to have my mam come summer. It was even more heart belt waking as at the time I was 9 months pregnant and the doctors who where looking after my mam didn't know of my mam would meet my baby. So they rang my doctors and asked for me to be induced my doctors refused and I went two weeks over the labour and birth were a night mare. My mam finally got to meet my beautiful little girl. My mam is fighting so hard and is still here and I'm so happy to have this time with her and my daughter but I feel so lost I get excited because I have my beautiful baby. Then I feel guilty because my mam is suffering I am crying all the time. I just don't know what to do anymore my feels seem to be getting blocked. How do I come to terms such different emotions without it brining me down all the time. We where told we need to talk to my mam more about her situation how do we even start to talk about her dying???
