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I Lost My Dad

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Hi

My dad was more like a Best friend to me but after over 2 weeks since he has passed. I find it difficult to handle since were always together. He has been going in and out of hospital since I was 5 years old and had alot of medical thing wrong with him because he was still a fighter. I think he had been in most of the wards and most nurses and doctors knew him for his visits. He spent Christmas in hospital but got out for the New year then went back in I think he knew he had cancer and only him. He only told me 2 days before he passed away with Lung Cancer. 

He always said to me "If I die, I'll die standing up"

I know everyone has to die at some point but i feel he left to soon and I never got to say goodbye or anything so I will get through and try to pick up my life again.

 

 

Unicorn_girl  xx

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    Hi Unicorn_girl

    Sorry for the loss of your dad.

    You won't be alone here.

    There are many others who are coming to terms with the loss of a loved one.

    There is some information here on coping with grief.

    I hope you find it useful.

    Please come and share your feelings whenever you find it helpful.

    Best wishes

    Jane

     

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    Hi Unicorn Girl,

    I too lost my father a few weeks before Christmas. He lived in Canada and I live in the south of England. I never got to know hin as well as I would have liked to. Weonly made contact with him about 25 years ago and spent a week with him 24 years ago. Although we had never met as he married my mother in the early part of the war, I found we were so alike; same likes and dislikes and mannerisiums.

    I do miss him and not being able to talk to him on the phone. Over the years I have now lost ten close family members to cancer including my mother so I do understand what a loss you are trying to cope with. I would just like to say, allthough your dad is no longer with you, I always feel there is a part of them still inside of us, for they have helped shape the person we have become through the guidance and advice they have given us over the years. I know I often say or do something only to realize its just what my mother would have said or done and I do find it comforting.

    Take care, sending kind thoughts and best wishes your way, Brian

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    Hi there, I'm sorry to hear about your dad. We sound in a similar position although I'm 4 months in to this process. My dad was also my friend and neighbour so life seems pretty empty without seeing him out the window or popping in. My dad died 3 days after being diagnosed with cancer, believed of the lung. I think when they die so suddenly you are having to digest the diagnosis as well as the grief all in one. I still spend my days wondering did that really just happen? I know people die but my dad was only 64, far too young in my eyes. I still cry most days. Do you have anyone else around for support? It's really hard in the first few months, I've found once I'd more or less digested all the information and questions I had I've been able to remember him more for the man he was. My dad had hidden being unwell till a few weeks before he died, that's why I had some many questions. Keep coming on here, it provides lots of support. Take care.

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    Hello,

    So sorry to hear about your loss, its so heartbreaking and surreal when someone youve known youre whole life has just been taken away. My dad got diagnosed with Esophageal Cancer End of November and passed away recently on the 10th February. It still doesnt seem real, he was only 46years old and would have been with my mum 28 years this year. I still cant believe that this is all happening especially when he was so young, waking up is the hardest with that split second that its all okay and then it hits you. I wrote a little poem that has helped me each day. 

    My heart is aching everyday knowing that youre gone. 
    I find myself wondering how life is meant to go on. 
    Waking up is the hardest, accepting that this is real. Its hard getting through each day as I dont know how to feel.            
    There wont be a moment that goes by where I wont be thinking of you. And This is going to be the hardest thing we are going to have to get through
    But you will live on within us each and every day                             And we know you will be guiding us every step of the way.
    No matter how old I am or where I may be,
    You will forever be my one and only Daddy. 

     

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