Am keeping you in my thoughts Deggsy as you celebrate your wife's life tomorrow at her funeral.  Take comfort from knowing that those who loved her will be by your side. Believe it when I say I understand how emotive the day will be for you you and the family. Sending a hug. Jules

I would like to wish you strength and courage, for tomorrow and the times ahead. 

Thanks all,

Yesterday went well, stupidly, I can almost say I enjoyed the day. The sadness was outweighed by all the friends of Gills who turned up in numbers from far and wide and friends of mine from all parts of the country came to support me. Not only did they attend but all wanted to contribute to the tributes paid. Whatever it has given me today a feeling of some inner peace, still missing her like mad, but today was not a bad day. Yes Graham you got it right!

Glad it went well

Melanie was a semi-professional artist and when she died we sat there in the house and found that we were drowning in pictures - Many people wanted a "souvenir" of her and so  we decided that after the funeral we would sell her pictures for Cancer Research in the function room of the pub where she and her friends used to have exhibitions.

It made the end of the day fantastic to realise we had raised about 4 thousand pounds

Still makes me smile that she missed her only one woman show and how cross she'd have been at that!

I'm glad the day went well for you and all - this next time will be the tough time though as everybody goes back to their lives but I guess you know that.

Stay strong :)

Hi Deggsy

So pleased you we able to embrace the day and found comfort in the numbers attending.  It does feel strange (though not at all stupid) to find enjoyment on such a day but celebrating Gill's life through her passing , with so many family and friends in support, brings some peace and the knowledge that you were not alone. Take care  Jules x

I'm so very sorry to hear of your husbands passing. My 19 year old boyfriend of 3 years passed away on the exact same day. Monday the 8th of February at 8:38 am. I hope you are dealing with the emotions that grief brings, and looking after yourself. X

Hi moonand stars .... Thank you for replying to me. I am so sorry to hear of your loss.

How do you get through this .... I am at a loss! I feel like I am on a roller coaster , one day I seem to be ok and coping and then another , like today, I am really struggling. I keep crying and although I am trying to keep busy , still my head is crowded with thoughts. 

Like you , I feel lost and heartbroken , and like you , I have good friends to support me, but nobody can truly know the pain, the anger and the hurt that this terrible disease has brought unless like us , you experience it. And how I wish we had never had to experience it.....the grief is indescribable to others. People keep asking me how I am? I have no idea how I am , so I just say I'm fine, but of course I'm not !!!!

My husband was 8 months from diagnosis to passing, but 8 weeks , for you, you must have found that unbelievable. I just can't believe that I will never see him again. His funeral was on Monday and I get his ashes back this Monday so I know they will bring me some comfort, but nothing will every replace him .

Please keep in touch.... It helps me to know that I am not alone on this terrible journey 

Paddock x

Hi lilmac, I am sorry to hear of your loss and thank you for finding the time to reply to me. Nigel passed away at 1.20am that morning and I was with him , I will never forget that moment ..... Unfortunately we couldn't get his funeral until 29/02 and so it is only now that it all seems real.

I'm very raw with grief, I'm sad, angry ,tearful, just everything, but I just try to take one day at a time that is all we can do.

I hope you have support and are finding comfort from family and friends.

Take care, Paddock x

this is my frist time on here but i know how you feel i lost my husband on 9/9/15 and from then i feel alone  , loss and hurt to if fun my friend said to me you well loss told with the friends you 2 had togther and as for     family i have none that you could go and talk to they all are thinking about them self and their loss