Hi to you all....I understand everything that you've all said and that in a good way makes me feel normal...some days I feel anything but!!!! My lovely Debbie, I echo everything you say and do. I too put the rugby on at the weekend and gave a commentary throughout! I've also told him about the new wonder kid who's scoring all the goals for Man United....my boys just shake their heads, but i'm the one here on my own and I've decided if that's what gets me through the long lonely weekends, so be it. My gorgeous sis and two friends actually took me out to our local cinema on Monday afternoon....silver screen ( you have to be over 55yrs old seemingly to get your free cuppa/biscuits) to see Brooklyn....a beautiful film which we all cried through and I was totally lost in the story. I didn't think of my precious Kev at all and I came away feeling calm and alittle happier. For the last 7mths, I've thought about him every day and night, but that couple of hours of escapism actually made me feel normal again....just for a while. We all need to keep strong and be there for each other and hopefully there'll be more days when we can smile for a while. Sending my love and big hugs...x

Ditto that on the cinema

a few weeks ago I took myself off to see the Revenant on the huge Imax screen, quite a sensory overload winter landscapes of the Rocky mountains on a truely gigantic screen.

It took a bit of doing - I think it was the first time I'd ever been to the cinema on my own - you kind of feel people are looking at you funny, even though they aren't - does that sound odd?

It's the little routines that you used to have that can be the hardest - we always used to record Gardeners World and watch it when we got up on a Saturday morning. Mel died just as it was going off air in October and I've just noticed it's back on this Friday - Not sure about Saturday morning now but I dare say that after a few weeks I'll have gotten over it.

I wonder how many other little challenges we'll all have to face - there's the obvious ones like the Wedding anniverseries, birthdays etc. but it's the little routines like that that catch you unawares.

Well you know how you eat an elephant - One day at a time!

( I do love a deliverately mixed metaphor :) )

Peach, glad it's not just me who puts his favourite stuff on the tv! feel a bit more normal now - thanks

Graham, love the metaphor!

Thanks again to everyone who took the time to reply, hugs to you all

Debbie xxxxxxxxxx

Peach, glad it's not just me who puts his favourite stuff on the tv! feel a bit more normal now - thanks

Graham, love the metaphor!

Thanks again to everyone who took the time to reply, hugs to you all

Debbie xxxxxxxxxx