Im 23 years old, my mum was diagnosed with lung cancer in December 2014, 6weeks ago on the 5th September my world was destroyed as she passed away. When she was diagnosed it looked very positive as they were going to try and operate to remove the cancer and she had lots of options but the cancer was around one of the tubes of her heart which meant it was too risky to operate. They then started her on chemo for 4 weeks this didn't touch the cancer so they then tried radiotherapy- this didn't touch it either. They said it was more aggressive than they thought. Through all the treatment she had she always kept so positive and never let it stop her from doing the things she wanted but when we knew none of the treatment had done anything It started to get a bit scary as we knew her options were running out. Near the end of august she went to hospital because of a pain in her back, they kept her in as she shouldn't have had any pain but they said it was nothing to worry about and was probably the radiotherapy causing the pain and said she would be home as soon as the pain was managed. A week passed and she was still in hospital but she was still my cheery positive mum and looked so well we still didn't think this was the end yet, no one did. I then went on holiday on Tuesday 1st sept until 5th sept, I was wary about going but my mum wanted me to go and enjoy myself for a few days her last words to me were "I'm not going anywhere yet" I arrived back off holiday on the Saturday, I walked through the door expecting to drop my bags off and go straight to see her, and then my dad told me the worst news I could have ever imagined. Her (good) lung collapsed on the Friday morning which ment her bad lung couldn't survive on it's own and by Saturday she was gone, I didn't get to say my goodbye to her. I couldn't believe it I have never felt pain like it. I couldn't understand how she was waving me off on Monday from the hospital as well as she could've been and then she was gone. I feel like my world has fallen apart, it was always in the back of my mind but I never thought it would beat her, she was such a strong woman. I feel like my head is all over the place but I'm trying to keep as strong as I can for my dad when all I want to do is curl up in a ball and wish it was a bad dream.