Hi Billy,

Sorry to read about the loss of your partner. Losing someone we love is always an emotional time and the mixed feeling you have are quite natural. I think we all feel that we could or should have done more at time like this, but the reality is where cancer is involved, there is often very little we can can do. It's this that makes us feel guilty. When I lost my mother over nine years ago I too felt like this and that I could have done more. We do as you have said feel a whole range of emotions and it makes us realize how powerful emotions can be.

As I am a lot further down the line I can tell you we do learn to live with our loss even though life will never be quite the same. Hope that just by writing down how you feel has helped.

Take care, sending best wishes and kind thoughts, Brian.

dear woodworm sorry to hear about your prostate, i am new here my mum died of ovarian cancer last december we did not know she had it until it was too late she only lasted three weeks in hospital before passing away, she was seventy four, four years ago 2011 she was diagnosed with breast cancer, but luckly they got a small lump out before it had spread, and we thought thank god for that, but i read people in that are in remmision must of the time cancer comes back, we do not know how long mum had this ovarian cancer but i know its called the silent killer, because you do not get any sysmptons untill it has advanced, the only sympton mum had was stomach bloating which many doctors mistake it for ibs, and they still have not found a early detection for it yet, when i read up about why ovarian cancer is called the silent killer it states by the time it gets detected it would have spread to the abdominal and most paitients die within five years, we have only just spread mums ashes on a garden of rememberance in the crem, i look at that advert which says one day we will beat cancer how long is this going to drag on for, it seems they have been showing that for years on tv and still do not seem to be getting away, i know alot of people will not donate to cancer, i wonder if this is why. good luck with your treatment woodworm.oggi