Hi.... I wrote on here in the couple of weeks after my dad passed away to lung cancer on dec 23rd... And had a lovely response from people, which was a comfort at the time. Especially when lying in bed at night, mind racing, not being able to sleep. Well I've had to wait a long time but my dad's funeral is on Thursday and I'm absolutely dreading it, naturally. Thing is literally all day I've had heart palpations and feelings of sickness. I know there's nothing anyone can say on this really but just wanted to post something anyway. Think I'm still, even though it was a month last Friday, in shock. Sometimes I feel like I literally can not get my head around the fact that he's gone... Some people tell me that a new stage of grief begins once the funeral had been and gone, and because I've had so long to wait for it this probably hasn't helped. Just want my lovely dad back. He was only diagnosed on 14th October... And died two months later. In a way, if he was never going to get better from it, I'm glad that it wasn't prolonged for him. All everyone keeps saying is that he's with me (one of his last words to me was that he will always be with me) so I'm constantly looking for signs that he's with me. I have a 'feather incident' whereby a feather just appeared in the top of my phone case, whilst I was lying in bed crying trying to choose hymns for his funeral! I like to think that had something to do with him, but who knows!?
Anyway, if anyone feels a connection with anything I've written, think I'm going to be up for a while unfortunately!
Laura x
Hi Laura, thank you for telling us about your dad's funeral. Although it was understandably a terribly sad and emotional day, in the coming days and weeks, I hope you can draw comfort from the stories that you heard about your dad's younger days from the people who knew him back then - he was obviously a much loved and respected man. Take your time to grieve for your dad, and remember, he will always be in your heart. Take care, Laura and don't forget that your forum friends are here if you need to offload over the coming days or weeks. Hugs to you, Jo xx
Thank you for taking the time to tell us how the funeral went. Its such an emotional time for everyone and I am in no doubt that in the days/weeks/months ahead you will draw much comfort from the 'tales' you heard (some of them no doubt new to you) from friends. I can honestly say it was those words that stayed with me following my hubby's celebration of life (though parts of the day are a bit of a blur) and we too went through being amazed at the kindness and support of so many people. Your Dad would have been chuffed to bits and stay proud.
Take all the time you need for the grieving process and like lovely Jo has said the forum is here whenever you need it (I still find it an enormous comfort to be able to chat to others about feelings and life in general and in time hope to be able to support others who sadly go through similar experiences).
