Hello Epi and welcome to the Cancer Chat forum.

I am so, so, sorry to hear what has happened. I can't begin to imagine how difficult and painful this must be for you right now but I hope you can take some strength, and comfort, from knowing that you are not alone and I'm sure some of our members who have also experienced the same loss and heartbreak will stop by soon to offer their support and advice.

I'm not sure from your post if you have any extended family but if you do, don't hesitate to lean on them or any close friends for help and support at this time as this is a lot to deal with on your own and I'm sure they will want to do all they can to help you at this time.

Coping with grief can be very tough but we are here for you Epi, and will do all we can to support you.

Kind regards,

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator